My Nan, Queen and bestest ever friend passed away on good Friday, 19th April.
I feel completely numb to it as if it’s all a bad dream. I’m so busy every day trying to help my grandad get on track after losing her. I’m starting to feel guilty that I’m not in pieces every single day considering how much she meant to me, but I am sure the grief will hit at some point.
Her decline was so rapid which is what I’m struggling with the most. In Feb, she was ok in herself, April she went into hospital unable to eat or wash herself. She then passed within a week after 4 days of constant sleep. I found those 4 days the most distressing time of my life where she was there but couldn’t communicate and couldn’t wake her. This is a horrible disease but I find it comforting to now read that others have experienced it. I am deeply sorry for everyone’s loss but the people left behind need to know we’re not alone and our experiences are probably quite similar.
I’m interested to know how long the ‘numbness’ lasted for everyone else?
Gem x
