Never done anything like this before but been told talking can help. I lost my wife 5 days ago wife was only 39 she left behind two young boys ages 9 and 2 she had Brest cancer and after a long battle she lost the fight. Now it's just me I some how have to be a mum and dad and keeping strong for the kids with all the mummy in hevan and will always be with us but all I want to do is to kiss her lips and cuddle once more. 29/12/20 day 8 of this nightmare children seem to be dealing with all this ok ish! 2 year old asked for mummy ever time the phone rings had to bath him without mummy for the first time that was very hard but I think harder for me than him 9 year old very quiet always playing mine craft but does stop and talk about mummy when feeling sad with is hard but lovely at the same time. Going forward I'm thinking of doing a memory jar so we can Remember things about mummy not sure what else I can do? 9/2/21 sorted all the funeral stuff out music photos etc not a job anymore want to do it's all just a daze! Sometimes at night I here her talking to me so I sleep well and morning comes and I'm hit by that train again just going round and round