First of all I wish everyone here all the best as there are so many difficult stories I have read and I feel for all.
We are a small family of myself, my wife and our small daughter who just turned 3. My wife was diagnosed with CNS Lymphoma (brain lymphoma) in September 2016. Since then everything has been an enormous struggle. Unfortunately she was affected very much by the disease and have had cognitive difficulties and personality changes since then. Af the time of diagnosis she was completely confined to bed, unable to talk or even eat. We were given a very strong regimen of chemotherapy called MATRIX and a subsequent stem cell transplant after conditioning treatment in March 2017. She went into remission but this only lasted a few months when first the lymphoma came back in the eyes and now recently in the brain as well. I cannot even put my feelings into words. Now we are told the options are extremely limited. Because CNS lymphoma is so rare, there are even very few trials available.
Yesterday in bed my wife asked me to please take care of our daughter. All she wants is to see her grow up... I just wanted to write something here as I have kept things inside me for so long and I feel completely exhausted trying to navigate a full time job with taking care of my wife and daugther and constantly worrying about the cancer. Now I feel I have to prepare for the final struggle. I just want to say to my wife that I love her and I will be there right beside her until the very end.