I think cancer has this way of putting everything in perspective. I know there are lots of things that I need to change in my life, having been faced with the harsh realities of my future, but these things are not going to happen overnight.
On a day to day basis not much is going to change and that is frustrating me. I still have to get up, go to work and do all the day to day things. There's no pause button in life.
I think I did do well during this period, but I'm now left in the aftermath of having lots of questions and none of the answers. I've had the fright of my life. I should just take comfort in that it wasn't what I thought it was going to be, sadly it's opened up a can of worms, which the lid won't go back on.