Hi, I am so sorry to hear the pain u are going thru, my two girls lost their Dad to cancer on Friday, they are almost 9 and 13...( birthdays next month that he will miss..)  it is all horribly new for us, but I understand the pain can go on for years... I am planning to organize counseling for them in the future when this lockdown finishes..are u getting any? Just because it happened a while ago doesn't mean you will stop hurting, and going thru teenage years feelings are particularly intense. So u should seek counseling at any time. I think it will be terrible for my girls when fathers day comes and they are making stuff at school for their Dads, what will my two do? My older daughter loved going on bike rides with her Dad and walking the dog- everywhere I look I see girls out riding with their Dads and feel so sad and resentful mine cant any more...it is all so unfair but you are not alone..xxx if u can talk to your mum about it joining a bereavement group with other kids who have lost parents also can really help, I have found being around others experiencing the same thing is the most help. U r welcome to join my daughter on Instagram to chat if u like - if I send you a friend request I can then private message u her details xx

I did counselling for a while after he passed and it seemed like it helped but I'm not very good at explaining how I feel but I'm more than ready to give it another try. It would be great to talk to your daughter about it as maybe we could help each other with things as some days are a lot better than others and I know how much it hurts on fathers day. Thank you so much for the advice! Xx

Hi, I have sent you a friend request,  if u answer that I can private message you her details..my younger daughter would be keen to connect too with other kids going thru it as well, shes only 9 so a bit younger, but still suffering obviously..we are living in nz if u wonder why u get messages from us at odd times- 12 hours difference! We are not really up at 3am! Their Dad and I used to live in London and were thinking of returning when he got diagnosed as there was a treatment available in UK which was free but not in nz, sadly we never made it.  hope to hear from you soon..