I've had an odd mole on my leg for a while (not sure exactly how long but at least a year). It is quite large, quite dark and looks "smudged" at one end. I should have got it checked sooner I expect, but I have quite severe health anxiety and am used to not being able to trust my body or my mind when something appears to be wrong - so it took me a while to be certain that my concern was valid.
My GP gave me a 2-week emergency referral for dermatology and I had my first appointment yesterday. The doctor I saw agreed that the mole looks odd and not like any of the (many) other moles I have and therefore she wants to remove and test it. Specifically, she said that although it's still small, it looks "disorganized" on close inspection.
They couldn't remove it right then, as they didn't have the right people in, so I have to go back on Monday. I explained that this had caused me a lot of fear/anxiety and asked if she could give me any perspective/reassurance. Her response was a long sigh, silence and then saying that it's hard to tell either way without the tests... and I fully understand that I put her on the spot with such a question and that she really *can't* tell me anything without the tests... but obviously I'm now still quite scared and that particular response hasn't helped.
I'm not going to put anyone else on the spot here, as much as I'd love someone to say "yes, you're going to be fine", but if anyone has some solidarity to spare, it would be gratefully received. I'm getting married soon and have just accepted a new job, but it feels like I can't think about any of those things with pleasure because "well I might be dead before then" (thanks for the catastrophizing, anxiety brain).
Thank you!
