How do you handle all the waiting ... i just seem to be lurching from one bit of bad news to another with long waits in between . I was diagnosed with breast cancer in jan . Initial signs were we caught it very early and surgery was all i needed . During surgery it was found in lymph nodes and chemo was recommended. So i have a scan as a formality im told before chemo and now they think it has spread to my spine. Im wairing for an MRI on Wed to confirm that . Its all gone from being survivable to terminal in a few weeks . I can process it , the waiting is driving me mad . I have support and everyone has been amazing but i live alone and no matter how many films i watch or books i read i find myself obsessing every night about it . Tracy