Hi there ... And welcome ... Well your feeling sorry for yourself ... Well good for you ... We aren't super heros ... We're just human ... So you scream, yell at the cancer and just how unfare it is ... If you read your post but in someone else's eyes .. you'd see why you feel like this ... We all have a rant and have a few tears along the way ... This journey wer on is a marathon not a Sprint ... So along the way we will feel like we just want to stop and get off this rollercoaster cancer ride ...

So you have all those feelings ... And when you get them all out, you stand back up , get your boxing gloves on and get back in the ring, ready to look it in the eye, and trade it blow for blow .. wer all in that same ring with you ... All with the same goal ... Kick cancers butt ... It's not about winning or loosing , it's about not letting cancer change who we really are ... We may have cancer, but it doesn't have us ...

A lot of people who have cancer don't think they are "brave" well l think everyone of us are brave, otherwise we'd give up at the first hurdle ... Look how far you've come ... You did it once ... You can do it again ...  We're always here if you need a friend or someone that knows just how you feel ... 

So sending you a big vertual hug ... Your not alone ... Chrissie xx

Hi Chrissie, thank you so much for your supportive kind words just what I needed.

I’ve had a better day today I’ve actually managed to stay awake for most of it.

I feel a lot better now I have joined this forum it’s reassuring to know that there are people who know exactly how I’m feeling and I really appreciate the virtual hug so I’m sending one back.

thanks again xxxx

Hi ... and your welcome ... any time you need it, I'm on here most days .. there's quite a few just read threads, and you'll be helping others who feel low, to know others are feeling the same ..

So hold on lass ... you take care ... you can always join in other threads too, they are a lovely lot on here .. Chrissie x

"....I don’t want to be this miserable person ....." and that is surely half the battle. You've recognised it and determined to overcome. Well done.

Thanks dj48, I understand what you are saying and I feel like I’m snapping out of feeling sorry for myself.