I lost my mum in september 2020 after her short battle with a rare cancer. It's so difficult to cope with it everything. It was just me and my mum. I'm only 20 and now i've had to learn to take on everything myself. My mum did everything for me and she was my rock. Half of me feels like it's missing. I feel like i'm never going to get out of this hole. My mum wouldn't want me to feel this way, but it's just hard. My mum only battled for 7 months but it spread rapidly. It's just so hard watching someone you love deteriorate. I feel like i've poured my head out on here. But i always like to seek advice and help.