Hi. I am waiting biopsy results for a lump I found in my left breast 10 weeks ago. I didn’t go to the doctors until a few weeks ago as I wanted to see if it was just because of my cycle, but it didn’t change. I had the biopsy on Tuesday at the hospital after an ultrasound showed it was solid and had abnormal blood flow to the lump and surrounding tissue. They also took a few biopsy’s from my lymph nodes as they were enlarged.  

I was diagnosed with stage 4 bowel cancer at the age of 29, 10 years ago now. I had a resection and also 8 rounds of chemo, which was hard, having spent time in hospital due to side effects and a tia when given the full dose.  I feel very lucky that I reached the other side. Some lovely people I met on my journey were sadly not. 

So as you can imagine, I am very anxious, as anyone would be. I keep trying to be positive, but my instincts are telling me something isn’t right. My Nan and her 4 sisters had breast cancer and sadly passed away. I have been tested for lynch syndrome and am part of the 100,000 genome project, but still no gene has been found to explain my earlier cancer. 

My worry is that I have seen that look on people’s faces before and can’t help but think history is repeating itself. The consultant I saw was certain it was just a cyst, but because of my history he sent me for a mammogram and ultrasound. When I returned his first words were “I bet you weren’t expecting that?” Well no I wasn’t, because he had initially given me hope it was nothing. 

I’m not sure I can put my family through it all again. Seeing their pain was the hardest part. I haven’t told many people, only my husband and a trusted boss who is also my best friend. Next Tuesday seems so far away,