I have empathy for you and all who are fighting cancer. I understand your fear but recommend educating yourself as much as possible. Knowledge on what you have, what it means and what your options are can be your sword during your fight.
I am proof that you can overcome this diagnosis. In May of 2005, at age 39, I was diagnosed. Scariest day of my life. I had breast cancer - triple negative, stage 3 grade 3 cancer...it was very aggressive. The initial treatment plan was to do chemo and then a lumpectomy. After an MRI revealed a second mass deeper in the breast, the treatment plan changed. I now had two differnt types of cancer growing in me and all I ould think of was "GET IT OUT NOW!!" But I had to wait a bit. On June 13, I had a modified full mastectomy (lymph nodes were clear!) with a natural reconstruction at the same time (8 hour surgery). I started chemo (8 rounds) one month later on July 13. I had a small infection that postponed one chemo treatment but otherwise infections were not an issue. I did lose ALL my hair as the cold caps had not been invented in 2005. Me personally, I could not where a wig...not for lack of trying...I had 3 different ones. But the chemo had also put me into a temporary menopause state so the hot flashed were unbearable with a wig on. And it's not like you can just pull the hair off when it public...it freaks people out. Hahaha, I still remember this ladies face when I did that!. Plus, when I would where the wig, I didn't feel like myself. I felt like a different person and that did not work for me. It felt like I was hiding. So I went with hats. Wasn't a great look, but it was me. I was open to the ridicule (and boy, people sure can be mean) if it meant people would stop calling it the "C" word! I had CANCER and what good would it do to hide? Anyway I finished chemo on October 26th and then had one last surgery in December to balance out the breasts (DD to a C). I now call it a long journey on my life path and I joke about having a belly boob (reconstruction used tissue from my belly)!!
This journey changed me in many ways! I now think that it was a way of preparring me for my next steps in life...showing me how strong I can be! I truly would not want it to be any different. The trials we go through, shape us into who we are supposed to be. This might not be where you are now, at this stage in your treatment, but someday.
So, 15 years, 5 months and 11 days after diagnosis, I am still here and healthier than before. It took several years of figuring out the best ways to get the nutrients built back up in my body after chemo. But I have learned so much about holistic and natural ways to do this with supplements and diet. I AM healthy, I AM not taking any long-term medications or suplements and I AM so much more aware of my body, how it feels and how things affect it. It brought me closer to spirit and showed me the link between mind, body, health and spirit. I discovered that "dis-ease" of one's spirit causes "disease" in the body. It showed me love and support like I had never known before. Many, many good things came out of what I had thought was so very tragic at the time.
So, keep a positive attitude!! This is key...do not let yourself become a "victim". Watch as many funny movies as possible or what ever makes you laugh and your heart smile.
Peace and love to you!