my husband died from cancer 1 year on Sunday I met T 16 he was 20 years older we been married 35 years he had T cell lyphoma he was 68 it was so advanced they said he would not get though chemo but I went to.live with him in hospital for 4 month to make sur they tried and he could cope left everything and children behind to be there as he was Italian could not understand it all against all odds he made it to remsion I also have terminal illness but did not care as long as he lived I did not do treatment myself so when he got an offer of stem cell treatment I was so upset I jjust wanted him to be with me it was going to be done to make sure it never come back at 70 me being 51 I didd not want to be with out. Him first it failed I ssaid to myself thankgod now I know he will be with me forever but no they did something they don't do they offered again I begged pleaded cried for him not to go though it again as they said it was high chance of death but no his children help him sneak out behind my back and go for round 2 so I went back I live there again with in a week he had neutapenic sepcis massive heart attract in totes site care for 3 days till I switched his live machine off now I live a very lonely life full of regret hart red for my children who in outraged him when they where not there for him like I was I have tried suicide to be together but survived now I have no way of being together till I die I just don't no where to turn anymore I just so heartbroken can't be with out him