Hi to everyone on here, I wanted to share a bit of my story and see if anyone else has been through the same and come through the other side good or bad! Would be nice to hear some realistic expectations and outcomes from people that have had treatment. I'm due to start radio chemo in January for tonsil cancer. I have a feeding tube to be fitted in a couple weeks which I'm pretty nervous about but going for it anyway, whatever they can offer is my thinking. I was offered a trial but now they're saying it's only spread to 1 lymph instead of a couple so no trial can be offered, not sure if this is good news or not feels like It should be but I'm not convinced. That being said I've been through loads of stages of paranoia since I found out, and I'm now just trying to let what comes at me just happen and breath. There are so many stories on google (I realise now I should not have looked but it's too late) Should I be getting my affairs in order just incase, will I have time to do that if things don't work. Am under or over reacting, these are just a couple of things that go through my brain daily, that I can't discuss with the family. Any thoughts or ideas and experiences will be welcomed.