Today I get my biopsy results for Breast lump

Good morning all 

today has finally arrived after one hell of a week on a very emotional rollercoaster 

i get my biopsy results today after a breast lump found on routine mammogram 

i am terrified of what today will bring I’ve already convinced myself it’s the C word with over thinking and fear of the unknown I’m supposed to be going on overseas holiday on Saturday for 2 weeks I’m wondering if it is cancer if I’m going to make it I’m very close to cancel or should I still go I’m mentally drained but otherwise I’m not ill just the anxiety that’s bad with allsorts if pains going through the body especially in the neck and shoulder and back I’m really scared to say the least i really want to go if it is the worst outcome I’m sure the treatment wouldn’t start for a few weeks anyway I think myself and husband would welcome the break wishing good luck to anyone else awaiting results xx