This is so difficult

 

Hi, I'm feeling very low today, getting very teary and realising that this nightmare is reality. Today I keep wondering how I am going to cope without my dad. I can't bare to think about the future. Life has been turned upside down after dads terminal cancer diagnosis.  It feels as though everyone else is carrying on as normal and that things are normal now that it has been a few weeks since diagnosis and that no one cares. I don't know why I m thinking like this. I'm getting upset at small things done by thoughtless meme era of the family. Dad has no energy, and it's so difficult to see him how he is. I am trying to be with him as much as possible.  He is currently undergoing chemo.  It's is absolutely heartbreaking. I feel so helpless, I wish there was something could do to take away what he is going  through.  Today he seemed so down....

 

 

 

 

  • This is so hard for you, please try to stay as positive as possible for your dad and as hard as it seems he needs to see you carrying on as normal, it really will help him. 

    When my husband was diagnosed last year with terminal cancer he was happiest when his boys carried on as normal around him treating him just like their dad. Talk to him, hug him and just be there, it isn't easy but he needs you to be strong for him, when he has a good day ask for his help or advice, even when you don't need it

    good luck and be strong

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    Thank you for your reply. 

    I wish you and your family all the best. Stay strong too.

     

     

     

     

  • Hi

    There is  nothing harder that watching a loved member of the family trying to cope with what cancer and treatment brings.  Both me and our adult children felt pretty helpless when their Dad, my husband, was diagnosed as terminal. The chemo (to try and improve his quality of life) often made him down and then he would bounce back for a few days.  It was like being on a rollercoaster of emotions  and the frustration of not being able to help him were hard.  That was when I found the forum  and whilst nothing could change what was happening, the support I received from others here helped me cope virtually day to day and then in turn I could support our children/grandchildren.  My husband's main wish was for us to carry on as normally as possible because he felt able to cope better if we were 'getting on' with day to day life.

    Having teary/emotional times is absolutely natural given the circumstances and is also a form of natural release. My kids and I would have a group hug and that helped give us the strength to support the one we loved, taking it day to day. all the very best Jules54

  • Hi your doing great, I'm in a similar situation Kevin my husband was diagnosed with terminal mouth and brain cancer mid June no treatment just palliative care at home and pain relief this is the most heartbreaking time in our life's so you may feel low I know I do everyday try and take time to recoup yourself coz we all need that I feel myself slipping lower everyday my kid's lift my spirits I'm.new to the forums but have found a comfort in it x

     

    Thought's are with you try and keep strong a hard as it is xxx 

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    Thank you jules54 and Hailey for your touching replies.

    It is indeed a roller coaster. There are times for a minute or two I forget or things seems like they were a few months ago and then I remeber again.

    My dad is an incredible man, kind, caring, humble, loving, the best......and my dad. I keep thinking why my dad, and being on here I can how many people are unfortunately in very similar situations.  

    He is having palliative chemo....

    Taking it day by day seems to be the only way. 

    Sending you all positive and strong vibes xx

  • My thoughts are with you.My husband has been diagnosed with brain tumour which is  inoperable he's having an awake craniotomy next week followed by radiotherapy and chemotherapy I to are having tearful episodes  so I understand your feelings completely trying to hold it together as best I can for my two children  thinking of you stay strong x