I'd just like to say that out in the world still turning. . Returning from work caught in the back log of traffic watching through my car windows, shoppers busily doing the Christmas buys .. I either scream. . Sob relentlessly. . Because my mum's gone and I just want her back. And I (after the grief attack subsides) think about this site. . The people all of you who are on the same journey as I. . Missing a beloved individual and reeling in all the sadness their loss entails. . I remind myself that I'm not alone.. And as isolating as this pain in that very moment feels in true reality, we are so many suffering and horribly and twisted as it might sound, I do get a sense of comfort knowing that there is somewhere I can go to read stories such as mine. This is my first Christmas without my mum. My wing man. My go to number one. . And I am surviving my unthinkable.. Its not just Christmas. . The spring will come. The summer. . The weeks and months ahead without my best friend scare the holy **** out of me and I'm a child again crying for her mummy. . But I'm here and so are you with your stories you generously share. . And they get me through a dark moment hour or day. . Bless you all. . God totally needs to bless you all x