Today I found out that I have a tumor in the lumbar section of my spinal chord. I still have no confirmation as so what Kind of tumor it is or whether it's benign or malignant. I'm meeting with a surgeon on Monday. 

Because of the symptoms I cannot walk properly, I can't feel the lower half of my body below my ribcage, I can't use the bathroom properly, and I can't sleep due to constant spasms in my legs. 

I'm terrified of what is to come because I don't know what that is.