well my radiotherapy has been cocked up as last week i was on my way to start it and they decided i would be better on this holding breath one and its now starting a month later !
Now off to the hosp again Monday as they want me to start Tamoxifen ! for a month then stop it for treatment then start it again.
I am really not happy about taking this drug. No one seems to be posting anything positive. everyone saying weight gain aching joints generally feeling ***! I am allready perimenopausal so i have already gone through all the hot sweats and they have stopped the thought of them again, waking up in a bath of sweat in bed being embarrased when i m out sweat poring off me on a night out etc does not fill me with joy. There seems to be more reasons not to take it than it take it. what about quality of life ? its supose to stop the cancer returning but will it ?? or will i just spend the next 10 years ( im 45) being aching being fat and miserble ( im size 14 now I would not want to be 18+)
I know this Doctor tomorrow is bossy, its my body shes asking me to put a poision in my body for 10 years. I feel 50/50 that with a lumpectomy and no nodes involved clear margains and radio t i don't want to take the drugs and would rather have 10 more years of being happy and drug free and if i die at 55 then so be it cos what kind of life can it be if I cant get out of bed in the morning or walk my dog or do anything phyiscal and then feel depressed as hell.
I am really having second thoughts to this drug... it feels all wrong to me.
what about just having my overies removed that produces the hormones ??
Suzie.