Hi pj 

IF there is something wrong ask what they are going to do about it, 

Thanks Billy, i know the word "IF" is emphasised at the moment but i'm trying to be as organised and as much prepared as i can be.  x

Hi pj i wish you wouldn't use big words I'm getting a headache trying to say it my tongue is getting twisted, what does emphasised mean I had to copy what you put, do you read dictionaries in your spare time, good luck for later., 

Billy 

P.s good job I've got a spell checker on my phone, 

Good luck for your appointment today sweetie. Sending lots of positivity your way xxx

Thanks a lot @Shakingmad, i took everyones positivity with me today and although it wasn't the best news, i came out feeling fairly confident and more at ease than i have done these last few weeks. Although a biopsy wasn't taken, apparently i refused this but i put him right and told him i was refused it by the doctor. Anyway, it is lung cancer but in my head it is a relatively small one (3.5cm) 0.00 cm would have been better but hey ho. He has recommended surgery because of the size and how quickly it has been spotted.His guesstimate of it is a T2a (or possibly b, i can't remember) and i will no doubt get a call from the surgeon either this week or next to meet with him and go through it all with a view to doing the surgery the following week. I know it shouldn't make any difference but they are sending me to a private hospital to have it done and they are hoping to do it via the keyhole method rather than open surgery but that is still to be determined by the surgeon. If it is keyhole then he informed me that it would be done robotically with a machine called Da Vinci which is apparently one if not the most advanced machines in the whole of Europe and knowing the hospital i am going to (i had surgery there many years ago) then i believe that i am getting the best. The surgeons at this hospital also work for the NHS so the actual surgeon is just the same one but the hospital is different and i have faith in whoever does it no matter where it is done. They may possibly do a frozen biopsy while doing the surgery to determine if i will need any further treatment with regards to radio or chemo. All in all, i have come away feeling in a better place than i was this time last week because at least i know now what it is and what will happen and i also told Mr PJ which is a huge relief to myself, now i just need to decide if or when i tell the rest of the family but i will deal with that another day. To celebrate, if you can call that an event worth celebrating, i took Mr PJ for lunch which was naff and bought a new kitchen bin and doormat from Asda ............ who says i don't how to party hard, lol. Thanks to all for indulging me and reading my nonsense, i will celebrate with a vodka or a glass of wine later .... no fags though ლ(◑␣ ◑)ჱ ➳ -- -- ➳Thanks Very Much ➳ ➳ლ(◑␣ ◑)ჱ

Hi pj it's a shame it's not raining I can imagine you jumping in all the puddles you can find to celebrate. Best wishes. 

Billy 

Billy, i did write a reply to you here earlier and now it's gone but basically it was to say thanks to you for your well wishes and to inform you that no dictionaries were harmed or eaten during the process of me writing my post.

I couldn't eat a whole dictionary anyway [[]] It would fill me up in no time. And there's not a bleeding puddle in sight. xxx

So sorry to hear your bad news huni but I'm so glad you are positive. It's the best way honestly. Take one day at a time. Sending love

I was a silly Billy, I've had a room cooler in the loft it dropped temp five deg so it's bearable now hope your not str__ping off again are you cool enough (I know your always a cool chick) it to hot for love so beautiful thoughts,.

Billy 

Hi pj your very quiet today that's not like you are you OK, just checking remember your a friend I worry about you,, love :-(  Billy.