Dear Liz

Someone called Snuelson replied to your post. It was kooky so I reported it to the forum moderators using the report function - no idea what he/she was spouting about - but not helpful, and if you had already read it I suggest you ignore.   The post seems to have been taken down which is good  

On to the important stuff - and no you are definitely not being overly dramatic - you can only do what is best for you - but I am a strong believer in following your instinct - which is what I tend to do.  Weigh up the advice and go with what feels best to you at that time. 

I faced a similar dilema as you face now in the past. I had a full mastectomy on my first breast many years ago - I was not a candidate for reconstruction due to widespread disease outside my breast on my chest wall as well as in lymph nodes.  My surgeon at the time refused to refer me to an oncologist, his argument being my disease was too widespread for further treatment to be of use, but my lovely GP got me an appointment - the outcome of my ‘grilling’ the oncologist for information was that the oncologist thought that the surgeon was probably correct.   My choice - live it up for six months or spend my probable last months of life in treatment which had a limited chance of success.   I went with my gut feeling, chose the treatment and have lived long beyond my initial prognosis.   28 years and counting so far.  

My oncologist was wonderful, I have the utmost respect for his professionalism and will be eternally grateful for his compassion and expertise and his wiilingness to back my decision all the way  

When It is not possible to second guess the future, or not possible to logically decide which course of action to take, when you are faced with a choice between two seemingly equal courses of action - then go with your instinct.  But first of all write out two lists - head one advantages of going ahead with surgery now versus advantages of waiting - then wait 24 hours and decide which feels right to you at the end of that time.  

It may be there is a third way - have the surgery now but request that the operation is carried out in a way which makes later reconstructive surgery possible at some time in the future. 

I wish you strength making your decision and peace that it is the right choice for you once you have made it.   With my best wishes for a speedy recovery from your surgery what ever choice you make.  If you would like to   let me know what you decide xc

Hi Ceres

Thank you for taking the time to respond i am most grateful. I hadnt seen the other response you mentioned so thanks for that too. I dont need other peoples issues.

I will do as you suggest and weigh up all the options once i have more information. It seems that waitingfor results and appointments is something im goin to have to get used to as well. 

Liz x

Hi Liz

Yes sadly - practice at waiting goes with the territory.  Glad you didn’t see kook post - I am impressed at speed Forum Moderator responded - they even emailed to let me know taken posts down and blocked the account. 

It doesn’t hurt to take a bit of time to think things through -      unwelcome news takes a while to sink in  - in the end you will make an informed decision and run with it.  

Wishing you all the best with making your decision and the corresponding treatment.   If you wish update the post with your decision etc.  Or if you want to chat at some point in the future send a reply - and I will pop back up. 

With best wishes x Ceres