Hi. I lost my Mum to cancer 2 days ago and now sit at my Dad's bedside with undiagnosed cancer but definitely multiple organ failure and is hours from death. I am numb and not grieving yet but losing both parents will inevitably hit me hard when it does. I am a recovered gambling addict but I will remain clean out of honour of my parents and my own self-worth. Allow yourself to cry, smile, laugh....whatever gets you through the minute,hour or day. My Mum died on my Son's birthday just for irony. I won't patronise you but will remind you we are in this together my man. One step at a time, make your Dad even more proud x Kieran

I'm sorry for your loss Kieran. Thank you for taking the time to reply in what is clearly an extremely difficult time for you.

It's some comfort to know we're not alone with this. I'm sure both your parents are proud of you for turning things around.

I wish you all the best.

I am sorry for your loss. I lost my Dad to a brain tumour this year in January. He died within a few days of diagnosis. It was so quick I feel like I never had a chance to say goodbye. 11 weeks on, ever day is still hard. I have close friends who sadly also lost a parent young and have said over time the pain gets easier to manage or cope with which gives me hope for the future. For now I just try and put one foot in front of the other as have young kids to look after and my Mum to support. 
I hope you get through the funeral ok, as well as it beings very difficult day to get through it is also a time to celebrate their life and all that they meant to you. 
 

Thanks Echocanyon, I know my parents are watching over me and my children and wouldn't want me to gamble or turn to drink etc. I am numb, as I wrote my Mum died and Dad was critically ill - he died 2 days later. Clearly they were destined to be together. It was the worlds best love story x It's a cliche but one day at a time and do your utmost best not to overthink. My thoughts are with you.

Kieran 

I'm so sorry to hear that Kieran, my thoughts are with you. I guess it's some comfort to know your parents are together again. We had the funeral for my dad yesterday. It was so hard but there were also some lovely moments of remembrance and people I don't know saying lovely things about him. People said it would be a chance for me to say goodbye, but I don't feel like I ever can say that to him?

Hope you're doing as well as you can. Stay strong.

Thank you for your post Lara38. I'm sorry to hear about your dad. It's a wierd feeling of relief that my dad passed quickly enough that he didn't suffer greatly, but also too quick for me to come to terms with? I hope you're doing ok.