This my first time here. Lost my husband Joe September 6. He was diagnosed back in May of this year with stage 4 testicular cancer. If it wasn't for my kids I wouldn't have a reason to go on. Seems as if we had kicked cancer right in the butt than got a curved ball thru at us. Now our 2 year old twins don't have a father. August 21st was he last day of chemotherapy. Only had 3 weeks to do of radiation for the cancer that spreaded to the brain. Our family had just got back into starting to live life after his month and half stay in the hospital. I just don't know how I suppose to go on without him.