Hello Laura and welcome to the forum.  There are no rules for grieving; it takes everyone differently and there is no time limit.    There are different stages of grief but again it doesn't work the same for everyone and sometimes you can get stuck in the same place and find it impossible to move on. You would probably love to share the anniversary of your Nanna's death and you would probably find a new way of grieving, that is to talk about your gran with your family and even smile at some memories.    And be able to visit your Grandad.

The best-known charity to help with grief is Cruse Bereavement Care Freefone 0808 808 1677) but I know some people are having to wait if the demand is high in their area.  I have also come across another charity named The Loss Foundation who give bereavement counselling for people bereaved by cancer.  Their phone number is 0300 200 4012). Furthermore if you log into the MacMillan Cancer Support website - I attach a link - there is an a section called "In Your Area".  Type in your town or postcode and it will tell you of local support groups.

www.macmillan.org.uk/.../index.html

I find that even after many years I occasionally have a lump in my throat when something revives a vivid memory.  That is okay as long as it doesn't take over your life.  I do hope you manage to get through this.  Please come back and post here again if telling us your feelings makes you feel better.     Annie