Hi,
I haven’t ever posted before as when I write or think about the future I find I’m just so sad and angry. My husband has stage 4 colorectal cancer, mets in the liver and since diagnosis has been through so much already (straight in at stage 4 in January of this year).
We have a young baby, still only 10 months, and I am finding things very tough. Then feeling terrible about myself because I’m not the one going through everything. I just struggle to feel positive, I’m holding it together (mostly) during the day and looking after our gorgeous baby keeps me busy but it’s so hard to watch the effects of the cancer and the chemo.
He’s in so much pain, and so frustrated and upset that he can’t do anything and there seems to be nothing I can do to make it better.
All I can think is that it’s so unfair, so horrible and I’m so worried for our baby having to miss out on having his amazing, loving daddy. ️
How can I see the positives? The chemo cycles are so close together there doesn’t seem to be any time in between for the good days. Just tiredness, sickness and pain.