My father was diagnosed with throat cancer 12 months ago. He has always been verbally and physically abusive to both me and my mother who died 10 years ago and he is also an alcoholic and extremely controlling and manipulative and will play people off against each other.After my mum died he suffered with depression and tried to drink himself to death numerous times and for the last 10 years has turned obsessive writing notes which are everywhere in his house and trying to replace my mum with numerous women he has met online. Anyway After 9 lots of chemo he has recently had a fall which has rendered him immobile and having difficulty communicating. After 3 weeks in hospital he has been transferred to a hospice in the past couple of days. The problem is that I have no other family and when visiting him on my own he is aggressive demanding and still trying to control me. I have visited daily and he doesn’t even care that I am there unless he wants something or for me to do something for him. In the presence of other people he is a sweet little old man but he is entirely different on my own and was with my mum. At the moment he is demanding to go home so his latest gf can visit him more easily (which is all’s he talks about) I can understand that he doesn’t want to be in the hospice and whenever I try to explain that they are looking after him he gets angry at me, he insists that I don’t go to see him enough (although I go daily), I am finding it increasingly stressful when visiting time approaches. I don’t know how long he has left to live as the nurses are vague but he has started to hallucinate and hasn’t eaten for days. I just feel so helpless but also angry at him for the way he is to me and left wondering if this is normal or if I am heartless. I keep thinking, will they send him home? Should I be doing more? Will the nurses think I am a terrible daughter for not spending all day at his side and how long will this continue for. Sorry to keep going on but has anyone ever experienced anything similar?