I feel a flu even typing this. I had a grade 3 tumour in my breast. Underwent chemo x6 and radiotherapy x20. My life was a treatment rollercoaster for 8 months. Now it's over. I've had my first mammogram one year on. It's all fine. How lucky am I? So why is it finally catching up with me now. I was a machine through treatment. Driving myself forwards. Refusing to get poorly. Now I'm struggling. Stressed out. Feel drawn back the hospital. Never thought I'd want to go back! I walked through Christies recently. Just to be there. I don't understand what's going on with me. Anyone else felt this way??? X