Hello to everyone.I am terrified about having cancer.I am due to have the camera job down my throat and endoscopy.I cant eat my meals because of the constant bloated feeling like a brick in my stomach and oesophagus.I have a constant metallic taste in the back of my throat and constant nausea and stretching.I have absolutely no appetite and the thought of even trying to eat makes me wretch.I have been like this for approx 2 weeks now and I cant honestly stand it.My appointment for the cameras is on 6th Dec.and seems I am waiting forever.I am withdrawing from my family and this is upsetting my wife who does all the caring for me on her own.I am 74years old the same age as my dear wife.She keeps telling me to think positive but how can I when I feel like this! I am so locked into my symptoms as that is all I feel all the time the horrible pain in the tummy and oesophagus.I suffer with depression at the best of times but now this has tipped me over the edge.How can I stop getting locked into this constant horrible unbearable physical feeling in my stomach?I try to go a short walk but all the time the stomach pain is there and it never goes away!I have read all the posts here in the chatroom and sometimes it comforts me to know there are fellow sufferers out there but at other times it totally depresses me and Upsets me more.I sleep for about 2hours at night then wake for about 3 hours trying to nod off listening to relaxing sleep music but it's so difficult to do that because of the pain.I am so locked into my symtoms mentally that I cant function I just want it to stop! Does anyone out there have any advice for me as I am desperate.I have answered other sufferers on the forum offering my best wishes for their way forward but can do nothing for myself I feel so hopeless.
