Still in shock and numb. Very scared.

Hi all I was diagnosed yesterday with stage 2 grade 3 breast cancer. I'm still trying to get my head around things. I have a few more tests to do, ct, bone and results from a skin biopsy as my breast is inflamed.

I'm terrified of worse news from these tests. I have 2 lymph nodes that have been affected with cancer cells, terrified that it will have spread further. 

I've got 2 boys at home, 4 and 14 and I'm really struggling. I'm trying to be brave but I can't find the strength yet. 

Xxx

  • Bless you, you're in the right place on here...this forum is a god send to me.  We all understand.......isn't it a shocker getting a cancer diagnosis ? The ride will be a bumpy one but by god we are going to ride it! Xxxxxx

  • Hi there ...

    Well Marlyn is so right ... lots of us breast friends on here ... I had a grade three breast lump... and a masectomy July last year. . And yes it's the scariest word we ever hear ... and always think the worse .. it's like the scariest rollercoaster you can imagine ... and the worse part is that first part ... the big unknown ..  but breast cancer has come along way ... we just hear worse case sinarios. .

    I thought my number was up ... and nearly gave up ... but I've had amazing family support and on here ... and you'll always find a friendly buddy on here ... we all have ups and downs ... but we help each other through ... and I'm still doing well 17 months on ..

    Cancer wants us to crumble and lay down and never get up ... it feels strong then ... well once you get all those feelings out ... get ready to get in the ring and punch it's lights out ... it's not about feeling scared... it's about feeling scared but still getting those boxing gloves on, and going another round ...

    So just know we know how you feel... we've all been where you are now ... look on the thread "the good and bad" lots of ladies have joined in along the way ... they chat about lots, not just cancer ... and it shows the highs and lows ... but you'll see everyone sticking two fingers up to cancer ... together wer strong ... sending you a vertual hug ...  Chrissie xx

  • I am already planning my pink ribbon tattoo next year! My boxing gloves have been firmly on today.....thanks to ladies like you...xxxxx