I am a young girl struggling with my step mother being diagnosed with cancer. The outcome is not looking great. I have recently moved out of the family home and go for visits when I can. In results to this I struggle deeply with seeing her and after visiting I cry for many hours after.
I am in need of help on how to make this easier, why I always want to cry when seeing her and how to cope with this. It sounds so selfish as it makes me not want to visit cause I am then so upset and don't want her to see me like this but at the same time I want to be there for her. I have struggled with abandonment issues and I feel this could be a part of it, not wanting her to leave me.
Sorry, I genuinely looking for some support as I feel I have know one I can open up to about this. Would be great to find out if others feel like this to and how they deal with it.