Having avoided hubby all night, I went to say goodnight as I needed to be up early for the roofers who were coming at eight thirty. Can I have a hug and a kiss he asked, how could I refuse, I can never understand the frustration of having cancer, not knowing if you will be able to live a normal life again. Knowing that it is treatable not curable. What black thoughts you must have just to overcome the horror of not knowing how long you have. It is bad enough for me and I'm not going through it. It's difficult keeping a happy equilibrium each day, not allowing it to cloud your life through every minuteof that day. We have stayed strong but sometimes life throws a curve ball at you both and you have to dig deep to find even more inner strength. You avoid most people on these days as you don't want to bring them down too. Anyway, roofers finally arrived at ten this morning, no one fell off and they cleared up after themselves, and oh yes the sun is shining, glass of wine in garden is on the menu. Take care all my fellow carers, lovers and partners and stay strong!!