Hello lilyange. And welcome to our horrible club! Just wanted to offer a word of support. I started chemo last April and had it for six sessions. I found it helpful to keep a note on a calendar of how I felt and then on the next round it didn't seem so bad because I knew how quickly I recovered. But day 4/5 was dreadful, but it got better each time from there on. 

Wishing you all the best for your coming treatment 

Couldn't agree more. I also kept a diary and found it very useful to look back on symptoms and recovery.... ️

Thank you so much Littlenoddy,

I just don't know which end of me is right at this minute,lol,

Want to sleep but brain won't allow me,in agony with bowel,they say magnesium should give me diriea,butnim the opposite,just feel yuck,

Thanks for tip,note pad in hand,

Ange!

Thank you Marilyn,

Great idea,

Like I said,I was lucky to get this far of been ok,so ilmjust have to grin and bare it,

Il keep notes,Thanks again,xx

I finished chemo last March.I was already taking magneisum and calcuim for bones and sleep. Don't worry about takingtoo much magnesium, the body will take what it needs and get rid of the surplus through natural means. l I also started eating red meat for iron and B12 along with spinach. It kept my blood count up and kept me out of hospital, too. The other thing is, I took a bottle of water into the chemo suite abd drank it plus a couple of cups of coffee. You need loads of fluid to flush the chemo around the body.

All the best, my friend

Patsy

Thank you patsy2020

Very handy to know,xx

Angie!

Hi Lilyange.

My wife always hits rock bottom on the 4-day post-chemo mark. Back in the early days (she was diagnosed with late-stage ovarian cancer 18 months back), and when she was on the 'heavy duty' chemo, she often told me that she would gladly have thrown herself from off a very high building because of how utterly and completely crap she felt. She never did that; she's still here for myself and our son, and this is after a diagnosis that meant she shouldn't have even made it to early 2019, let alone 2020.

As bad as you feel, never give up. Keep up with the treatment. 

I can only wish you the very best for the future. 

Mark X

Hi Zeelund

Thank you sonmuch for reply,

That's great news about your wife So Happy for you all,

Yes the last chemo hit me hard,I don't know untill next tuesday if they are going to continue with chemo or maybe start Radiation,as I did get the good news that the chemo was shrinking the tumor,  h can't Handle the waiting around, plus having to meet the Oncologist always puts my stress levels up the roof,

And yes I can relate to what you said about your wife giving in,I've felt that a few times,

There seems to be no help out there for mental health  that is driving Me mad with constant fear and anxiety,

Plus I live alone,lost my husband to cancer,and feeling very much alone going through all this,

Thank you again for your reply,

Angie,x

Hi Lilyange,

That is great news that the chemo is shrinking your tumour! I know it's really hard sometimes, but do try and focus as much as you can on the positives. I go with my wife to all of her meetings with the oncologist, and completely understand how it sends your stress levels to the heights of the Martian atmosphere! The worst meetings are those after a CT scan...

I can absolutely relate to you with regards to mental health issues. I suffer with severe anxiety, this has obviously been exacerbated over the past 18 months because my wife's cancer isn't operable, and I'm well aware that - sooner or later - she won't be around anymore; that thought absolutely terrifies me. There have been many times since my wife's diagnosis when I have felt literally on the edge of a complete breakdown, and you are absolutely right, there is no help out there for such mental health issues.

That you are going through all of this, having already lost your husband to cancer, tells me everything that I need to know about you; you are far, far stronger than you give yourself credit for. Never forget that, and never give up hope either.

Best wishes,

Mark 

Thank you Mark for your lovely reply,

I can only keep you allnin my thoughts and prayers,

I know I need help from a phyc but there's only one at my hospital that can't deal with mental health issues with cancer and he's booked up for months,so frustrating,I feel very close to the edge,I don't know about me been stronger than I think,I feel like I'm falling apart,I'm doing good phicially,onymon pain relief when I need,I think the 1st hospital that diagnosed me and told me they were sending me home to die destroyed me there and then mentally, they don't even specialise in cancer,and then other hospital that took me has done 4 chemo's and told me last week it's shrinking the cancer,which is great,I'm hoping next Tuesday's meeting will be positive and hopefully help my mental health,

Thanks Again for reply and kindness,

Angie,x