Hi. I'm a 33 year old single mum currently trying to care for my terminally ill mother (stage 4 oesophageal cancer) and an 11 year old son.
For a good number of months now I've had ear pain on and off and pain at the back of my tongue. Because I have been supporting my mum through her own cancer diagnosis etc i didn't do anything regarding my own health.
5 weeks ago the ear pain became constant and antibiotics, ear drops and an ear spray made no difference. I then started getting pain in my neck. I have an ENT referral for next Wednesday. I went to the dentist today and she found a thickening of the tongue near the back of my mouth on the side that the ear pain is on. She has made a referral for a biopsy to be done and says they should be in contact with me within two weeks.
To say I'm scared is an understatement and the fact that I'm trying to support and care for my mother is who dying from oesophageal cancer makes it all the more difficult.
Potentially my son could lose both his nana and his mother from cancer and that breaks my heart. I have cried and cried. I have tried reasoning with myself that it might not be cancer and that I'm getting carried away with myself but I just cant see this having a happy ending. I don't even know if i could cope if i ended up having cancer as well.
I guess I'm writing this because I feel so alone and helpless to stop what is happening and hoping that someone says hi your not alone.
Lots of love and light to anyone going through this nightmare that is cancer