Hi there i i thi if your under drs orders i wouldnt worry it they tryed to get rid of you then there not worth working for . Plus the bad publisity would scare em if it got out .best have a word with citzens advice they should help . But on the other had sat at home you may have been worse . The thing is a few weeks off work is not enought some cope some cant sounds like your in the middle try and get plenty of sleep drink and eat healthiery we tend to neglect ourselves and that makes it worse have you tryed bereavement counciling .if your struggling theres te samaritons there there for everyone not juat people who are contemplating doing somthing number free open 24 hours a day your in a queue system but genraly you dont wait i lost my partner so was alone and they kept me sane well a bit anyway just hang on to the fact that every day it gets slightly eisier as you get your emotional energy back and start to get your lodgic head on .regards .paul 

Thanks Paul.

I am now in a deep dark depression and don’t care for my own life anymore.

Life is horrible and I am alone and finding it hard to do anything.

Screw work for now as I need to focus on my own health.

Yes get yourself ok the rest will follow but do go see your gp if you are depresed its hole you cant get out on your own  .me when my partner passed all our dreams stopped instantly but i came back thats how it works we think lifes over but its not for me ive just started to cme back and start with new things life is never the same how could it be but its not over if you let it get you then cancers taken you to and thats a no no .keep your chin up it gets eisier no matter what we think at the time .best wishs .paul  ps keep coming on here theres lots going through it so your not alone on here your to important to this world to get lost in it