Scared

went to the doctors yesterday and have been referred to the breast cancer clinic. All I’ve been having is discomfort next to my left breast but couldn’t feel an actual lump it just felt like I couldn’t quite put my arm flat with out discomfort. The worst thing is I eventually went to the doctors at the end of March and they said try these antibiotics and if it’s still the same we will need to refer you, they didn’t say to the breast cancer clinic though so I just didn’t think about it seriously and I took the antibiotics and it was still the same but by then we were in full lockdown and I didn’t go out anywhere only had online shopping so ignored it. So yesterday when I went she got me to put my arms on my head and immediately said my left breast was noticeably swollen making that breast look much fuller. She referred me and I had to say to her I’m away the 4th to the 11th but after speaking to my husband he said if necessary we will drive back for the appointment which is about a five hour drive so that may be the case or the app might be just after I’m back anyway which is ten days time from today. I’ve had the referral email come through today saying if I haven’t heard in two more days to ring them...that’s scared me...so quick! I had a lump in 2011 which turned out to be a cyst but this is totally different and once I got home and took off my bra put my hands on my head and looked ,the whole outer side of my left breast is not rounded now it’s swolken outwards I feel a fool for not seeing it, with my arms down I can’t see it and as it’s like a swollen soft ridge I was feeling for lumps but couldn’t feel it. I had breast reduction surgery in 2014 and my left breast was always slightly bigger before surgery and I could see my left breast was a bit fuller now but my stupid brain was saying oh no even after the breast surgery the left boob has got bigger again, with the discomfort why didn’t I put two and two together. Last night I then did the worst thing you can do and googled and one type of cancer with this type of swelling although rarer was so serious that even if I recovered it was still saying 5 years post cancer prognosis, I’m in a real scared state now wondering all sorts. I’m a bit aches at the base of my neck and have a little discomfort in my shoulder blade too but I do have a small scoliosis of the spine on the right so get lots of skeletal pain in my back which they tell me is related . I’m scared though

  • Hello Bumblegal54,

    Thank you for posting. I see from your post that you are worried about some symptoms you have.  Referrals tend to have a quick turnaround, so please don't let that scare you. I hope you've been able to contact your clinic. When you are worried that you may have cancer, it can be tempting to look for answers online, but this can end up increasing anxiety rather than making you feel better.  And the only person that can diagnose you is your doctor.  Mindfulness could help calm your mind and help with your worries.

    I hope this is helpful,

    Moderator Anastasia