Harveym66

i only joined this chat yesterday and am newly diagnosed too (only a week ago) but I know you’re lying there awake like me and need someone to reach out. So PLEASE don’t do anything...... people are beating this everyday and surviving. I’m 35 with two children and I too am petrified of what’s to come.

you can get through this. Do you have a family who you can talk to?

im not in a positive place either at the moment but wanted you to know I’m here for you just now x

Hey, 

I'm sorry about all the stress and worry you are going through right now. Unfortunately I know what that feels like. I've had a few suspicious lumps since I was 18, and am now 22. Mine turned out to be nothing, even thought my GP was so convinced that the lump she had felt was cancer, when she rang a few months later routinely, she asked if I was going through chemo. It wasn't anything like I said, and everything pointed to it being so. I just want to let you know that sometimes things can be wrong. If you're having thoughts like this though, then please try to seek help. 

I'm always here to talk to if youd like to message me. Just add me as a friend and message. 

Lots of love, 

Alexia xxx

Don’t go putting yourself into an early grave, my husband is a consultant and said the worse thing people with no medical knowledge can do is use Dr Google. Drs take years and years in medical school to know what they do. The internet  is a very scary place.

As JsyGirl rightly pointed out there’s tons of treatment options, I know at least three people who are living with cancer who had it ten years ago. I am going in for a biopsy tomorrow and if it turns out to be cancer I will not be looking at survival times and stats. I want to live everyday without the pressure and worries of a death sentence looming, don’t forget heart disease is an even bigger killer. 

I would see your GP and tell him/her how you feel. Wishing you all the best Gill x

Welcome to the forum Harvey although I'm really sorry for how you're feeling at the moment.

As you've found out, all sorts of thoughts can go through your mind when contending with a potential health scare but due to the references you've made about suicide it would be a good idea for you to speak to someone about how you're feeling as soon as you can.

Samaritans are available 24 hours, 7 days a week on 116 122. They are very supportive and understanding and will do all they can to help so if you are finding that things are getting the better of you then do give them a call. There is some rather useful advice on what to do and how to work through suicidal thoughts and feelings on the Mind website as well.

If you have any family members or close friends you feel comfortable discussing this with do reach out to them and let them know how you're feeling as I'm sure they will want to do everything they can to help you through this anxious and uncertain time.

There is only one day to go now until you see the haematologist so hang on in there Harvey. You are stronger than you think and you are not alone.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

dear harveym66-don't despair-it might not be as bad as you think-our bodys have amazing powers to heal especially when you are young-these symptoms you have are indications that your body is fighting -I am three times older than you and I have survived a major operation in 2008 and have no sign of it-my mother died of cancer 47 years ago but if she'd had it now she would have recovered-just eat well lots of fruit & vegetables to help your body and try to resolve any emotional stressing situations by putting yourself and your needs first-maybe you have been putting something else before your own needs-we have to look after and love ourselves first.you are very young and maybe reckless with your energy -trying to do too much for others or expecting too much too soon for yourself?I found sort-of-meditating helped me-just sitting and concentrating on a phrase like-the universe breathes through me-is very calming and helps get in touch with the real inner you-the one who watches your personality.And pray-ask for help.all over the world in completely different religions people believe in angelic beings who help-and many many people appear to have been helped-one final thing-of all diseases cancer is the one that can most often just miraculously go away in what doctors call spontaneous remission-so i found it very helpful to think of all the little cells in my body chanting my name and being all really like stridently on my side-after all I'm their god -they want me to live they are in this with me-we're a  team so they are really going to do their best! love and best wishes from lynne

Sorry to worry you all I have been to the hemotoligist today. He took bloods for everything and felt all my lymph nodes. He said he doesn't think it's anything serious but he has sent me for a. Cat scan anyway to double check everything. They said if the bloods come back strange they will call me.