My journey continues - had CT scan & markers for prep of radiation treatments. I'mfine every day trying to get on with it. Whenever i have a hospital appt it just makes it all so real again & brings my emotional state right back down. I want to just cry. Does this mean i haven't accepted my cancer & am not dealing with it? I don't know how to feel any more. I've always been known as a very strong person but feel my strength has left me.