I have been really good the last couple of weeks trying not to think about the next step. Tomorrow I see my surgeon for my follow up and suddenly today I have become really anxious, part of me thinks its because when I got my initial diagnosis I really did not think I had breast cancer, now that I know I have it plays on my mind an awful lot. I am not 100% myself these days and wonder if I will ever be. I try not to stress out my friends and family but at the moment it is the only thing I seem to want to talk about.