Margin, It has been awhile since I posted anything but your situation resonates with me. My husband passed away in 2015 from Pancreatic cancer. We managed 1 year from diagnosis so apparently we were one of the lucky ones. My husband went through the same feelings at the end as yours is now. We had hospice helping so if this is available in your area I would suggest it. They were wonderful and the Doctor came to the house whenever the nurses called. The Doctor talked to my husband and answered any questions he had regarding all and any concerns. I believe what was happening was he was transitioning and his body was slowly shutting down. He was agitated so we were prescribed medication for this which helped to keep him calm. He passed away at home and it was calm and peaceful and we managed to keep him pain free at the end. I am not sure if this helps but I would suggest contacting hospice if possible.

Thinking of you take care, Cindy

Dear Chitch thank you for your reply.  My husband is going downhill quicker than we thought.  He is having terrible pains in his legs now and im so worried its gone into his bones.  He can hardly walk.   The doctor came today and took bloods so hopefully we will find out tomorrow.   I hate to ask but did your husband have any symptoms like this.    I am struggling so much but im trying not to show it so i dont upset my hubby but im failing miserably.  X

Hi Margin, I would not beat yourself up about showing your emotions in front of your husband. My husband and I spent many hours talking and me more than him crying. But we both understood that there was nothing that he could do to prevent what was ultimately his death and me losing him. And there was absolutely nothing he could do for me in the aftermath. It was something I would be dealing with on my own. He did encourage me to talk to family or someone that could help but I never did. Maybe one day. As for the leg pains, no my husband never complained specifically about his legs hurting. In the end he was literally skin and bones and I recall he was in a lot of pain all over even to the point of me being able to only give him a single kiss at a time. Once we got his pain under controll he was mostly in bed sleeping until he passed away. I would ask the Doctor about his pain medication. Take care and I will be thinking of you. Cindy