Pancreatic/renal cancer

My aunt passed away nine years ago I am still grieving for her 13 year old me never thought that 22 year old me would still feel this way my uncle recently joined the angels too he died 5 months and 2 days ago and it never stops hurting grief never has had a set time limit for anyone but nine years later I’m on antidepressants and a lot of other medication I dunno what to do anymore I just feel so lost half of me is gone the part that made me feel complete has been taken from me I want this spiraling nightmare to end but sadly that’s not going to happen I keep dreaming she’s gonna come back and say she isn’t dead she just went on a holiday because she needed it to cure her cancer but sadly that’s not the case she is very much dead the three days that she was in my nanas house before her funeral just made it so much harder to say goodbye I didn’t want to leave her side I miss her so much 

  • Welcome to Cancer Chat Shannon although I'm really sorry for your recent and past losses.

    Many members here on the forum know how painful the loss of a loved one can feel many years after it has happened so I'm sure you'll receive some advice and support from them soon but in the meantime be kind to yourself and try to take things one day a time if you can.

    Some of our members have also found bereavement counselling to be really helpful so if you weren't able to do this when your aunt passed away maybe this could be something you could look in to now to help you work through your grief for your aunt and uncle.

    I know nothing I can say can make this situation better but I want you to know that you are not alone and that we will always be here for you.

    Kind regards, 

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator