Hi all,

I’ve been reading a few other peoples posts and they have inspired me to introduce myself and if anyone has any advice that would be amazing.

I recently lost my lovely Nan to kidney cancer which spread very quickly, i was very close to her as she was like another mum to me, and her loss has really affected me and i dont think i have grieved properly yet.

At the end of my Nans life i started to experience pain under my rib cage, at first i put this down to stress however when it got worse i went to my gp who thought i was gallstones. Over the months since then i have had ultrasound scans, MRIs and a gastroscopy which found a tumour in my pancreas. I am waiting for further tests to find out if it is a benign tumour or something more sinister which i can not stop worrying about.

The pain and other symptoms have caused me to have to defer my place at uni as i was studying to be a midwife and only have 9 months left to do until i qualify. To keep my place i need to go back in november however im not sure im going to be sorted by then. 

After seeing everything my nan went through with her cancer i am terrified that im going to be diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and go through the same thing. Its just adding that extra little bit of anxiety into my mind especially as its all still so fresh.

Basically im just a bit lost and need some advice. Laura