Hi, I thought I would write on here to speak to people who probably know how Im feeling.
My dad was in hospital for 2 months back in the summer, but has been home for about a month now.
He had two major operations which left him in ICU. Thinking that was the worst thing, yesterday it got worse. It was confirmed that he has pancreatic cancer. And the doctors gave the prognosis that without chemo he will have just a few short months & with chemo he will have on average a year. They decided he was strong enough for chemo after a lot of consideration, so he is having a round once every two weeks bascially just to make his quality of life better (if it works).
Saying I am devastated would be an understatement. My dad is and always has been my favourite person in the whole world. He has the best soul ive ever come across. How he raised me is exactly how I want to raise my children in the future. He seriously is everything I could have wished for in a dad.
Im 22 and he is only 64 so I feel like our time together is really going to be cut short. I want my dad here forever, but its just so sad thinking he wont see me graduate, wont know what job i'll have, wont see me get married and wont meet my children. And its so painful because I know he will be thinking the same.
Please feel free to reply. Its really comforting reading through this site and seeing how many people are dealing with this like this and that are coping, bevause right now i really feel like thats impossible.