Hi,

What you're going through isn't uncommon - the first few months after diagnosis are a whirlwind of activity then suddenly everything comes to an end and you're sat wondering what the heck?!

Give yourself a break - it takes a while to adjust to the new reality. Go on holiday, go crazy, do things you've always wanted to do or just veg out and literally do nothing for a week. It's your life, live it how you want.

I described myself to my GP as being in a state of heightened awareness about my physical health - every cough, sniffle, ache and pain could so easily be a sign that my cancer (I still have mine) has woken up and is growing again. What you're feeling is pretty normal given the circumstances.

Sorry to ramble on but I don't think enough effort is spent on the mental and emotional well being of cancer patients and survivors - we're all prime candidates to develop PTSD and/or depression when you think about it. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is that you are not alone - many of us feel that way some, much or all the time.

Best wishes
Dave

Thank you so much for your lovely reply. My partner and I are going on holiday in 2 weeks as a wee treat for me, I plan to kick back and relax and enjoy the sunshine for 2 weeks x