And breathe. We’ve all felt like this at the various stages in this process. Yes it’s caught early, mine was, but that doesn't stop you tormenting yourself. Book yourself a treat soon, just something thing  for you and to look forward to. I got a facial and had my nails done when the what if’s got to me. 

Yes a good idea thank you ! Think cos I'm on my own today doesn't help ! Don't think I can clean the house anymore !! X

I’m ‘watching’  Moana, again. Should be word perfect shortly. Done a bit of painting earlier, cue tuts from [@Jbains]‍ and [@Sandra123]‍. Bit of shopping watching this morning, daughter had a gift voucher to use so a quick trip to the local Outfit. 

How about a bit of virtual shopping? 

Yes I'll try that !  Just had granddaughter in had fun playing with her and chatting X thanks again for your help x

Good Evening Deirdre

Bless.... only 5 days till yr appt - it will b here before u know it.

 Hang in there. Things really do get better when u have an action plan.

If you feel worse on your own then mention it to your family- see if there is a way for them to split their time with u. When I was diagnosed all my family landed.... together. Everyone will want to b there for u but this is new t them too. Help them t help you the way u want nd need. 

I was told at my ultrasound nd biopsy that she was pretty certain it was cancer. Got formal results a wk later. In that week I had the most horrendous headache - I was convinced it was a brain tumour. It wasn’t - it was a tension headache. U will b thinking it’s hardly surprising that I was tense. It didn’t stop my mind going t dark places nd thinking the worst. How you are feeling is normal. 

Make notes of what you want to ask nd raise at your appt next wk. Raising your worries with the team will help. 

We r all sending virtual hugs. 

Nd yes ...a bit of retail therapy never goes amiss;-) x

Hi Deirdre,

Another great way to reduce tension is to do some kind of creative activity like even coloring in an adult coloring book like Mandalas.  I know because aside from having cancer, I work with cancer patients in hospitals giving guided meditations and mandala coloring activities while people are getting treated.  The results are amazing.  

Wishing you an easy time

Judy

I’m suffering from the “what ifs “”as well. Your mind can play terrible tricks especially when you keep trolling the Internet. If it had come from somewhere else that would have told you. Be thankful it’s a stage 1. It will be sorted. Unfortunately, I had depression before this so that doesn’t help.

anyone out there found a way of coping?

Not worth a button!

I’ve tried colouring etc but when I feel like that Im paralised . It’s not a great way to live not knowing how you will wake up. Im  speaking through depression which I had before this so cancel what I said and get your colouring books out and you will get guided medication on the Internet ‍♀️

Thank you Sandra 

your words mean so much ! Just need things to get moving ! I've had awful bouts of running to loo !  And not a good colour!! My daughter getting me to drink green smoothies with kale and spinach so I'm hoping this is why . So worrying ️ ️Think I'll give them a miss tomorrow  thanks again xx

Thank you Frozen 

ill try that to let my mind in focus !  Just hate not knowing and I feel so ill now whereas before I was going to the gym 5 days a week ! Now I just shake ️ ️