Hello
I’ve joined today as I’m suddenly not coping.
I lost my dad to cancer 4 years ago. A few months later, mum was diagnosed. She had chemo and was in remission but it came back last September. Mum lived with my partner and me for a year before she suddenly became unwell with a clot on her lung in July. I wasn’t here when she got a call from the doctor telling her to go to hospital. She went on her own. We thought she was coming home but she died a day before dad’s anniversary. I also lost my dog to cancer in April this year.
I took a month off after mum died; arranged her funeral and then went back to work. I recently had a holiday in the hope that a break would make everything better but it hasn’t. I’m worse.
I’ve had days when I can’t go to work, or get sent home. I’ve come home today as I had a panic attack. I feel completely overwhelmed at the moment. I feel useless and pathetic and that I should just be getting on with life, but I just want to be at home, with my partner.
I miss them all so much.
