I’m getting married in December and my dad has been diagnosed with cancer to the stomach. I found out three days ago and haven’t cried so much in my entire life. I have never felt pain so horrific. I can’t bare to think of my dad not being with us anymore. Selfishly the thought of him not walking me down the aisle is devestatng. I spoke with the nurse who advised he has stomach cancer and it’s spread and isn’t cureable. They can only offer chemo to manage it but won’t give me a timeframe on his life expectancy, only it won’t add years. When I asked if I should bring my wedding forward, I was advised to do so. My dad seems to think the chemo will give him 4 years on his life but that’s not how I’m interpreting it, (where has he got 4 years from)? Who am I to shatter his hope. I feel so confused and upset, Im suffering with depression and crippling anxiety my heart feels like it’s leaping out of my chest and is so tight. I can’t get a handle on my emotions. I understand each person is individual and don’t in anyway want to rain on my dads positive attitude but I’m finding it so, so hard.
