I’m new I joined in June but haven’t posted yet but this is my story. Mum died in June 2017. The pain & grief have only now just started to come out & im struggling. I’m an only child who doesn’t have a relationship with my dad, I feel so alone. Im single single no partner or children to give my purpose. I was signed off work for 6 weeks when she first died, spent the time sorting her affairs etc & went back to work, I thought I was doing ok but the last few weeks have been hell & have just been signed off again until 2/3. I have no focus or drive to do anything, something I know Mum wouldn’t want but I feel weak to ask for help but I’m terrified that I could slip further if I don’t get it. I just want to feel ‘normal again’ whatever that means I know it will be a new normal but I crave the feeling so so much.