Hi polly 

Welcome to the forum the club nobody wants to join, it's OK you've not been diagnosed hopefully you'll be OK, it does not matter, if you need a good rant carry on not every body on here has cancer, you can talk till your hands ache,, good luck. 

Billy 

Thank you Billy

I didn't expect a reponse so quick. I am worried about ranting because I feel I may not stop!  My anxiety is bad today, chest pains, crying, that unmistaken feeling in the tummy of nausea and fear, and legs shaking.  This is all before I know what might be wrong. Thank you for your words of encouragement. I already feel I can share my worries here. You are so kind.

Polly

Don't worry alot of those pains can be caused by worry, and stress, you'd be surprised how many people on here have the same problem.. I know it's not easy but try to relax. Find something to do that you like doing. Best wishes... Billy 

Hello love, I see the lovely billygoat has welcomed you in....this is your safe place...you can rant away all you like....we hold each other's hands xxx

Hi polly you never said what they think might be wrong, (it took some figuring out how to put that down so it sounded right) if you talk to people people with same thing it'll give you a better idea, don't forget you can rant all you want, and welcome,...Billy 

Hi Billy

Uncertain yet. I am booked to have the camera down my tummy. I have been reading a thread about this procedure as I have a medical phobia, so even going to the dentist is traumatic for me.  Is it right I should be focusing on myself here? I feel somewhat selfish.

I know you don't know much about me as I ddn't complete the introduction profile. I don't want to bore you, in a nutshell I turned 58 this year. I have two beautiful grandchildren from a woderful daughter.  I live alone so often find myself prone to lonliness and over thinking things. If you want to know anything else please ask (as I say I don't want to bore you).

I've lived with the fear of dying since being a child. Of course, when ones health becomes an issue, the fear, for me at least, escalates. My fear of cancer and medical procedures has intensified over the past few years.  I am trying to find ways of managing my anxiety so I take this as a postive.

I hope you are feeling well today.

Polly

Hi Marlyn

Thank you for responding.  I don't think I would have gone further if Billy hadn't welcomed me.  I immediately felt as though I had a friend sitting next to me. 

I see you have two dogs. I have a 'westie' and a 'cava poo'.  I find my dogs keep me going even on days when I am crawling around the floor in despair.  They are always there for me. I have just replied to billy saying I am feeling a little selfish talking about myself. At the moment, fear is consuming me so I am finding it difficult to look outside of myself. 

I hope you are well today

Thank you

Polly

Hi Pauline. (polly) yes you want to consontrate on you, if you're nervous, you probably want pain relief or local,, to relax you it doesn't hurt but is very uncomfortable it makes you want to be sick to bring it up, i think your stronger than you think, you've come on forum to find things out, that's a good sign,, people don't realise how strong they are till something happens, best wishes and good luck.... Billy 

Hi,

i just adore dogs, sadly we had to have the brown one put to sleep last year, so we only have our Rubi, she's a wee sweetheart, I can't imagine my life without dogs..

so you will be having an endoscopy? My mum had to have loads of them during her life, they spray your throat I think, to numb things a wee bit....anything medical gets my blood pressure up, I've had to have quite a lot of treatments this year....but the funny thing is, when they've finished with me I think....what was I fussing about??? The mind is a deep and complex tool, which can work in your favour or be your worst enemy ....I hope you have someone who can go to appointments with you? It will really help I think xxxxx

Hi polly, don't worry if you want to talk about yourself we're all good listeners especially the ladies that's what the forum is all about having a good rant and let it all out, the more juicy the details the better (joking) don't worry any time is talk time, God bless....... Billy