Hay bless ya, no wonder your heads all over the place ... it looks like life's been throwing you low punches for some time now ... one thing you need to do firstly, is step back and look at what you have been through, and realise at 6 stone, it's really effecting you big time ... what if you get ill ... you need firstly to look after you ... take time to eat and have even a little bit of time just to collect your thoughts.. I can't imagine how you do so much every day ... 

Sorry can't help with questions as I'm a breast cancer lady ... but in having a lot of my family going through lots of stuff with health at the mo .. every week I take one day, just for me ... and I can feel my battery charging up, so I can be there better to cope after a battery charge ... so no matter how impossible it is to take a day out just for you, you will feel so much more able to cope ... coz you sound like your running on empty ... 

Sending you a big hug , Chrissie

Hi AK123 ... 

I'm afraid no one here can tell you if he'll be fine, coz wer just normal people like you who are effected by cancer ... we can tell you our journeys and give support to others ..

All I can say, is hold on in there, and try to live in the day ... write all questions down for his oncology team and if you don't understand the answers, ask to make things clearer .. cancer is so cruel, but at it's crulest when it effects our young ones , so my heart goes out to you and your bro on this journey... wer always here if you need a shoulder to lean on ... big hug ... Chrissie

Hi there Ak123 sorry to hear about your brother but don't lose hope as there is a really good cure rate for leukaemia my son had the same type B cell. We choose the trail as the standard treatment is 10 years old we're by the trails are being used already as standard treatment in USA and Germany they use high does methotrexate 4 cycles with no pulses in maintenance (steriods or vincristine)  as we were randomised. He's MRD was low risk. 

Yes he's fine the treatment was tough especially the DI part low cells and hospital stays but there is light there. We also believe in healthy eatting, no fast foods etc my son found a love or Thai food, once the chemo knocked his cells out we'd make him drink loads of water, bath to wash chemo out of his skin and eat mostly Thai currys homemade. 

Does have extreme OCD towards cleaning as now has fears of germs.

if you want to talk more please drop me your FB username and happy to support you xxxxx 

Thanks everyone yes I definitely need a break, just booked few nights away so hopefully get bit of recharge. Thing is because I act so tough my family tend to push a lot on me there massive blockers and will leave things till there to late to be fixed.

like when my dad dies, I was away on holiday and they rang me and said "your dads not feeling good" I asked why they was ringing me and not the Drs? Told them too but my mum avoids problems and left it and he dies of sudden heart attack, same with my brother I was in icu with my son and my mum rang saying your brother can't walk? Said ring anblumce now! She left it waited for on call dr to come at 6pm then she rang it by then he had two full on strokes!

i get really frustrated then I put myself last and run around trying to fix everything

Oh bless ya twice ... you must have at the back of your mind, if you leave it to anyone else , something bad will happen ... be carefull it doesn't become to the point you just have to be every where for every one ... coz if you do get ill, they will have to cope ...

Who cares for the carer .... well I do, so please do something just for you ... a treat ... weather it's turning phone off and listening to music .. the cinema ... a walk in the park /seaside .... even for a couple of hours ... but turn your phone off ... if any thing happens in the meantime, you can blame me ... 

Sending a hug ... and take care ... Chrissie