Hello Tasminlea, 

I just wanted to welcome you to our forum. I am so sorry to hear your nanny is so poorly. It is normal to feel completely numb and lost at the moment and to be scared to go and see her at hospital. You've done the right thing though to come here to talk to others who understand exactly what you are going through at the moment and how hard this is for you and your family. As you say, sometimes it is difficult to talk to those who are closest to us about our feelings and it is easier to chat here to others whom you may never have seen but who know better than anyone what you are dealing with at the moment. 

We are thinking of you and your family during this difficult time and I hope that others will be along soon to share their own stories with you. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hi there Tamsin ...

Well I'm a nanny with cancer, and have 6 grandchildren from 5 to 28 ... and 2 great grand kids at school ..

Well I'm really close to one of them, and we've been inseparable sinse she was 1 ... and is the reason I try hard to stay as long as possible .. she's 8 next month ... and she's my world .. in the pic .. so I understand that nanny granddaughter closeness .. and I've made her a memory book of our time together ... so if I go, she will know how much I loved her .. you could make a memory book of your nanny later .. her story and pictures so you can show your children .. that's what I want my granddaughter to do ..

It's really sad, but we all have to go sometime, it's part of life ... but you've been blessed to have her in your life's for so long .. my son was 7 when my mum died .. they were best buddies... but you know, we talk about her all the time and both my boys still put photos of her on their face book, and tell everyone how amazing she was 30 years later .. we just brought her along with us .. she lives in our hearts ..

Your nan will be safe in your heart ... but right now, you need to say, she's here today .. I'll make one more memory ... hold her hand .. leave nothing unsaid .. share tears and hugs .. admit your scared .. it's o.k to feel scared ... we all are .. but if you can live in the day and make each day count , you'll be proud you did ..  she won't go far .. your a quarter of her .. she'll look over you as I will my granddaughter  ..

Sending a big vertual hug..  Chrissie  xx 

Hi Lucie,

Thank you so much for your kind words xxxxx

Hi Chriss,

Thank you so much for your message. I am so sorry to hear that you are poorly too. It's so sad :( xxx I've no idea how to cope with this xx you sound so strong yourself xxxx

i am going to see nanny tonight and I seen her yesterday x she was okay yesterday so I guess I must take it day by day x

Thanl you again and god bless you x

Just to update you all - Nanny passed away peacefully 20th November x :( tomorrow is her funeral and I am scared :( I hope my dad will cope x

I'm really sorry about your nan Tasminlea. I just wanted to offer you my sincerest condolences and let you know we'll be thinking of you today.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator