Just wondering if there are any more people like me in here that can relate as I'm feeling very alone and scared.
My husband is 31, I am 23. We have 3 children put together. He has terminal oesophogeal cancer, given 6-12 months, inoperable.
We have only just settled down together and I can not cope with the thought of him not being here. I'm crying every day. I can't imagine raising our children alone and being a widow.
He is very scared too and I stay strong for him but inside I'm falling apart. I've supported him through every stage, I've fed him through his NG tube, made sure all his medicine is taken properly, injected him, rushed him to hospital at 6am, taken his temperature hourly. I just honestly thought there would be a miracle and it will have all been ok. I'm struggling and don't want to talk to nurses as I feel they don't really understand how I feel. Neither do my friends or family. There are so many worries in my mind, especially how I will support the children when I don't think I can even cope myself.
He is my best friend and love of my life.
Are any other young people in the same situation as me?